I startled awake at 3:41 am on thursday.  I immediately thought he is gone.   I prayed for peace and for his journey to heaven.  But I still had hope I was wrong.  Later I used my Doppler and got the same 70-80s heartbeat.  I realized he had not moved that day and that I was hearing my own heart.  We went to the hospital where they confirmed our worst fear.  Silas had passed that day.  I will deliver our precious boy today.  Lord please help us see You in this time.