Today or sometime around this date we were expecting to hold our precious little boy.  I found it quite ironic that on his due date his headstone was delivered.  This chapter of our journey with Silas is finished.  Ever since we found out about him we have been planning.  First it was all the planning of adding another little one into our family.  Like, where will he sleep, adding on a new addition to our home, his name, and everything else that goes along with having a newborn.  Then when we received his diagnosis of HLHS the planning switched to how are we going to care for a child with a possible terminal diagnosis-being heartbroken, which doctors would take care of him, moving out of state, and all that goes along with this terrifying diagnosis.  Next, the planning of his death.  All the decisions of his burial.  Lastly, the planning of how we will remember him and  keeping his memory alive.  Now that all of that is done I am left with all the feelings of him being gone.  No more planning.  Although we will continue to be active in spreading awareness and helping however we can with congenital heart defects.  Also we will always look for ways to celebrate his life that God created.  We look forward to the next chapter with him.

Thank you again for all our family and friends who have prayed us through this time.  For always listening to me repeat over and over my sadness and frustrations.  For supporting my blog and encouraging me to keep on writing, that it matters and touches others in many ways.

This is a video Boyd and I put together to remember him and all that we have gone through with him.  It is kind of long, but special to us, especially the song that plays along.