Seven months have passed since I last felt my little Silas kick.  Time seems to go so fast, yet at the same time stand still.  It is hard to believe that it has been almost a year that I found out we were going to be blessed with him.  It sounds so cliche, but truly not a day goes by where I don’t think about him, dream about the what ifs…, and talk to him.  God has helped me let go of a lot of the pain, but my heart still aches for him and always will.

His garden is complete!!!  It turned out more beautiful than I ever imagined.  We love to go back to the garden daily and enjoy seeing all the changes. Different flowers bloom and sooo many butterflies flitter about.  At any given time there can be over a dozen butterflies  flying from bush to bush.  We decided to do a yearly family photo gathered around Silas’ bench so he can be included.  Each year we plan to participate in a local heart walk and design a new shirt.  We thought it would be cool to wear those shirts each year in our family photo in his garden.  So here is 2016 pic!

 

His bench has his tree engraved on the right side, beside his name (we are covering it in this picture).  Under his name is the verse Psalm 139-For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

On my tough days I just remind myself that death is only temporary when you believe in God.